Today i relized that i haven't updated my journal in a while (more like never) so i decided that i was gonna update it well school as you all probably know has started. if had tons of home work and am tired all day (of course the rest of my family has been about the same so i can't really complain )


SADNESS

....... I MISS MY BIG BROTHER!!!!!!!!!!!
my big brother left for the army on the 6th .........Jake (or... as you might know him) has not just been a brother to me...but my best friend and just like that...he's gone....now when i come home from school and all excited because i saw a cool car, or played a new video game and wanna tell jake all about it i get home and relize..hes gnesmetimes i wanna cry but force myself not to. even though i know he'll be back on christmas but that just seems to long. Jake was the only person who really understood me and..he's GONE .....it...just doesn't seem real...every time i think of him its like a slap in the face...... of well i'll get over it....i think.


Thats about the only simi excitng thing in my life thus far...